Why I’m Meditating Every Day for #MayHealth

Hello lovelies.

I have no internet at home so I am blogging at Tim Hortons, and it feels wrong to be writing about May Health while I munch on a donut. But hey, my challenge isn’t to stop eating donuts, now is it? It’s to take time to meditate every day.

If you don’t know what May Health is, it is a month long event where you choose a small habit to improve on every day and everyone involved supports each other online/in person. Okay, did I explain that right? Go check out the website, where they explained it so much better! It’s my first year participating and I am very, very excited.

So why did I choose to meditate every day? Well, it’s simple. I got to the point where my brain was so clogged up full of stress, anxiety, and OCD habits, that something had to change. When you have a conversation with your roommate and the next day you can’t remember if it was real life or a dream, it’s time to try something different.


What are some of the benefits of regular meditation?

  • Decreased symptoms of anxiety/mood disorders
  • Improves focus and attention span
  • Decrease in restless thinking/tendency to worry
  • It increases blood flow and slows the heart rate
  • Helps in building sexual energy & desire (bow chicka wow wow)
  • Grows a stable, more balanced personality

So here we are on May 3rd, and I have been meditating for the past two days. The immense amount of support I have seen flying around Twitter in the #MayHealth hashtag is amazing, and everyone’s challenges are so interesting! Again, go check out the website and stalk the #MayHealth hashtag on Facebook and Twitter to learn more. I’ll be posting regular updates on how my challenge is going on Twitter, so don’t forget to follow me there if you aren’t already.

Alright, time to go do the third day of meditation. Ommmm…… 






Why Is My Makeup Rejecting Me?!

So today is the day, the first full day of my Toronto vacation. I’m currently typing from my hotel room, and let’s just put out there that I DID try to be a good roommate and work in the business centre…but the internet is awful in there (figures). So I’m that asshole of a roommate clicking away at her laptop while people get their beauty sleep, but blog posts can not wait!

So being that this weekend is a YouTube festival, and I am a beauty vlogger, my makeup for the weekend needs to be ON POINT. I planned the outfits, packed my regular makeup routine, and yet somehow, when I went to get ready this morning…everything looked like crap. Why?! Why do you punish me this way, makeup universe?

My foundation was just SITTING on my face, the powder was caking, my eyebrows were lopsided, it was just a whole ordeal over nothing! I ended up applying the tiniest bit of foundation, concealer, eye makeup and going “screw it”. But I found it interesting that this ONE day, everything was wrong.

It’s one of two things; a) my face is having a meltdown over nothing and rejecting makeup, or b) I am having a meltdown over nothing and my face is rejecting makeup. I believe it is a confidence issue. I’m wearing a dress I’ve never worn before, in a city I don’t live in, with people I only see once a year…it’s an anxiety meltdown just WAITING to happen. So I’m considering myself lucky that my makeup is the biggest problem and I have yet to just freak out all together.

So if you’re ever having one of those mornings, where everything seems wrong, just take a deep breath and recognize that you look beautiful no matter what. Makeup is just makeup and if it isn’t working that day, don’t wear it!

Just thought I’d ramble about my my morning….I have yet to have a coffee, which is extremely important.

Till next time,


The Past 24 Hours of Anxiety

Well…well…well, it seems my brain has decided to sync up with national awareness weeks now. What do I mean? Well, the the past 24 hours have been exhausting for me and brain, and with this being my internet home, why wouldn’t I talk about the shitty aspects of my life too? I’m human.

So yesterday I went to a social media lesson/seminar/thingy (for lack of a better word), and I was fine. Everything was fine. Learned a lot and had a lot of fun. But despite this, by the time it ended, I was having a full blown anxiety attack. Over nothing. I was red, patchy, my temperature has risen and I was suddenly terrified to be in a place that had many of friends in it. What gives, Brain? Why do you do this to me?

It carried on throughout the night, causing me to not sleep well. Super fun stuff, really. But then all day today was just the worst. A never ending sense of dread, thinking I haven’t accomplished enough both at work and in ThatGeekOnline, and fearing the worst in every situation. I ended up leaving work 20 minutes early because I felt like I was just going to burst into tears over nothing.

Why am I telling you this? It’s not something I do easily, allowing myself to be completely vulnerable on the internet for judgement and opinions. But ANXIETY IS OKAY! It’s nothing to be ashamed of, as is any other mental illness. It’s an uncontrollable thing and we have to allow ourselves to go “THIS ISN’T ME!”. You are fine. You are accomplishing enough. You are where you need to be. Your brains inability to see this right now is not your fault.

I’ll be fine. It’s all temporary and come tomorrow, or the next day, or even the day after that, I will be back to normal. Because that’s what anxiety is for me. It lays dormant behind the curtains for me, giving me irrational fears and the feeling that everyone I meet hates me. But every once and a while, it pops up and for lack of a better term….just fucks me right up.

I hope my rant-y blog post made some of you feel a bit better. Or maybe it just made you feel like you know me a bit better now. Who knows? I just felt like typing and connecting with you all, even if only one of you reads this.

Till next time,